17th Oct '10
As I talked to one of my college friends today I had a realization. What I wanted three years ago, or lets say just a year ago, was quite different than what I want now. My dream of becoming a director or writer has shriveled quite a bit and I have become more accepting to the changes and situations I face in life. Can I say this is maturity? Or is it just adjusting and accepting the things that I cannot change?
In college, while doing my Bachelor's, I had a distinct dream or say a plan in mind. I had thought quite clearly that when I pass my college I will get a job and I would be settled in a sense. I did pass my college and end up in a job but I also left it after a year and joined another college for my Masters. But now when I sit to think of it I really don't know which way my life is heading.
Very clearly my plan of life did not materialize. I may have made mistakes and taken some wrong decisions in life but they made me what I am today and I do not regret even a bit of it. But now I know things work out on their own and we might end up doing things we never thought of. In fact I have ended up doing what I thought I would never do! Maybe this is the case with me or a few other people my age. Or can I say this happens with most people in their youth?
Things don't always turn out the way we think nor do we achieve all our dreams. With time our dreams may change and it's okay to make mistakes. Youth has the liberty to make mistakes and learn what is wrong and right early on. I cannot afford to make choices in my career after 25 but I can right now at 22. We do have the time and the privilege to try out different things and see what works for us and what doesn't work for us both in the professional and personal fronts.
We normally go according to our parents wishes till we are in school. In college too some agree to what their parents have thought they should do. But there comes a time in everyone's life when they are confused with whatever is going on with their lives either professionally or personally. That time may come early for some and a little later for others. Don't we all go through phases when we ask ourselves where are we heading? What will we be doing after five years?
Youth is a time to get confused, ask questions to oneself, make mistakes and learn to choose the right direction in life. It is a time of trial and error. To decide what works for you, where are you comfortable. I am in a phase where I am struggling both professionally as well as personally. No matter how much friends argue or agree I have to make my own decisions in life. I have to choose the way I have to move on for the years to come. I have no specific plan in mind as I want to live without regrets.
I want to make my own mistakes and learn from them. I want to live my own life, try and fail and then prevail. I don't have to live up to other's expectations but my own. I am no longer a child who goes on the path she is taken on by her parents. I am an individual who can now live her own life in her way without explaining why.
When you change your feelings into words you can make the impossible possible.
To love oneself is the beginning of a lifelong romance.
The mystery of love is greater than the mystery of death.
Love is the irresistible desire to be irresistibly desired.
“I love you, not for what you are but for what I am when I am with you.”
No matter what he does every person on earth plays a central role in the history of the world and normally he doesn’t know it.
A smooth sea never made a skilled mariner.
The secret of happiness is to make others believe that they are the cause of it.
The difficult is done at once, the impossible takes a little longer.
"I play to win and if I don't win I know a bigger victory awaits me elsewhere."
Success seems to be largely a matter of hanging on when others have let go.
The best way out is always through.
If you start out by promising what you don’t even have yet, you’ll lose your desire to work towards getting it.
“I see the world in terms of what I would like to see happen not what it actually does.”
You must always know what it is that you want. Never stop dreaming, follow the omens.
Together We Did
4th Oct '10
The grand opening of the Commonwealth Games was appreciated by one and all. With all confidence I can say that every Indian who watched the opening ceremony felt proud of being an Indian. The spectacle of the Jawahar Lal Nehru Stadium completely took me by surprise. It may be the infrastructure of the stadium, the aerostat, the lighting, the fireworks or the amazing formations by the performers but it will all stay with me for a very long time to come.
The opening ceremony was definitely a success. People who viewed it all over the world appreciated it despite all the criticism that preceded it. India did arrive in the world scene and how. Creativity and professionalism was seen in the various acts put up by the performers. The drummers from various parts of the country managed to give the ceremony a festive start. The aerostat stole the show completely right in the start with the katputlis dancing around it. Swagatam was another surprise as children danced in the formation of folded hands as Hariharan performed the song.
The spectators in the stadium also reminded from time to time that they are there. They shouted, hooted, whistled and cheered. The various speeches by Suresh Kalmadi, Prince of Whales and the President of India were appreciated by the spectators. The closing show of various folk dancers and the Indian Journey showcased the whole of India within the confines of the stadium.
For me the best was the ambience created in the stadium with the use of lighting and projection on the aerostat. The act of Guru Shishya Parampara under the Bodhya Tree was simply mesmerizing. I was in complete awe during that performance. The performance of A R Rahman in the end was a perfect end to the ceremony and in that too the spectators provided support by singing Jai Ho along with Rahman.
After seeing the ceremony and truly loving it I have forgotten all the criticism that we were exposed to before this. I completely forget all the problems that were caused to the public and all the negative media publicity. The success of the opening ceremony very strongly teaches us that together we can overcome hurdles and put up a great show. Patience and confidence can do wonders like the Opening Ceremony of the XIX Commonwealth Games 2010 in Delhi.
All the learning, patience, skills and strength is required in the journey but it all comes to be worth if the end turns out to be better than expected...
Truth and Non Violence
2nd Oct '10
Mahatma Gandhi, the man our country calls 'Father of the Nation'. Today the first thing I saw as I switched on my television was a documentary on the life of Gandhiji called 'Mahatma: The Great Soul". It caught my attention right from the beginning. The documentary was 60 min long and I watched it with amazement. It took me decades back into the life of Gandhiji.
There is no doubt that I learnt things I did not know before but I was forced to think upon the two things that have been always associated with Gandhiji, Truth and Non Violence. The two weapons that Gandhiji used to ignite the minds of the people of India and inspire them towards fighting with dignity.
Leave out today, right after independence the people of India forgot these teachings and had sought to fighting and killing innocents in communal riots. Then how can anyone expect these qualities in todays world? I myself am a believer in truth and non violence but there are indeed times when my mind takes over and my heart gives in.
Truth has now become a subjective term. What is the truth for me may not be the truth for you. Things are twisted and turned around before they are brought out in the open. People blindly follow the spoken word without verifying the facts. Then how can I accept what is a truth and what is a lie?
Non violence, love? Do people really understand this anymore? Everywhere you see there is hatred and fights going on. Patience is a lost virtue. Everyone is ready to use their physical strength before they can even try their patience. Non violence is taken as a weakness and a person who resorts to it is thought of as a fool.
How long can one carry on on the path of truth and non violence? Isn't life harsh enough? Aren't people difficult enough? I have experienced getting into trouble after saying a truth. I have experienced being taken as weak because I resort to non violence.
The truth today is the person who tells the truth is despised. The person who doesn't shout out loud and fight is not taken seriously. The world today has become blind, deaf and dumb. They cannot see love, they cannot hear the truth and they cannot speak without violence in their words. And a thought that remains in my mind is Gandhiji would not be very happy today...
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